Coaches & Silly Putty

Eva Rodansky and I were talking in Salt Lake last week; I was peppering her with questions about Boris’ training program, about intensities, weight training methods, length of taper, all of the details of training.

Ultimately, we both looked at each other and just agreed that one simply has to trust in a coach, and that as athletes, our job is to be “putty in their hands” and allow the coach to physically and technically shape us. As athletes, we are inseparable from the internal fires and stubborn drives that make us mentally tough, and because we are inseparable from those drives, we are frequently unable to have clear perspective to guide our own training. Also, because of our youth, we don’t have the wisdom that comes from 20+ years of competition.

Of course, I am not just putty, I am silly putty!! Picking up physical & emotional impressions wherever I can! And this is true of many skaters. Skating is such a technical sport, and since there are so many ways to explain & teach the “feel & practice” of skating, skaters who work with the same coach will start to resemble each other in their technical habits. In fact when I first worked with my current coaches, Rex Abertson and Boris Leikin, upon observing my style, Rex said to me “I bet that your first coach was Canadian!” he was right, Patrick Kelly, 2 time Canadian Olympic team member, was the first coach to ever spend time working with me.

I have a lot more to say about this, but I lifted weights this morning and now I have to go out and ride my bike easy for an hour or two, and time is short today… but I will say this, Boris believes I can make great gains in my performance from better flexibility, I was skeptical at first, but last week he showed me exactly how to do certain skate position specific stretches, and gosh! Like the hard trying ball of silly putty that I am, I have been doing them every day, and in the last 2 days, whoooosh!!! Its like my hamstrings are suddenly an inch longer, and I can extend my leg completely in the skate position!!

Go figure…. Coaches! Hah!!!!

Le Loup-Garou -A John Dimon Story

wow, 4 comments on the last post! it must be the John Dimon Magic…. since my next post is still in mental rumination format (i.e. been thinking about it, but haven’t written it yet, it has to do with silly putty & coaches) I will reprint a John Dimon Story I wrote down a ong time ago, and that originally existed elsewhere on the web. I think many of the lifetime athlete crowd of traveling sweat-gypsies have unique & weird road trip racing stories, but I have met few who have such a plethora of stories as John Dimon, here is one of my favorites (and the weirdest):

In the late 70’s a couple of US Olympic Biathlon team hopefuls were traveling the Northeast, doing cross country ski races and generally having way too much fun. As this was cross country skiing in the 70’s, lets just say these young, spunky, extremely fit fellows were just a little on the furry side. In fact John Dimon back then sported quite the viking beard (see the picture below). He learned the hard way that when carrying a pair of skis over your shoulder, keep the klister AWAY from your full beard, it was only 3/4 of a beard after that incident.

So these extra furry guys were at a race and staying in a cabin next door to a cabin containing a bunch of French Canadian racers. During the night a rat got into the Canadian’s cabin, and after running around and scaring the bejesus out of the Canadians, it climbed into a bag of potato chips someone had left on the floor and started munching away. Awakened by all the racket, a bleary eyed John Dimon appeared at the door of the Canadian’s cabin in his underwear. Figuring out what the source of all the noise was, and being only half awake, he took a flying leap through the air and landed with both feet directly on the potato chip bag! Without a word he chucked the bag containing the now rat flavored potato chips out the door, and stalked off without a word back to bed. The Canadians were speechless, This american was crazy! They liked him right away.

The next day at the races, the brutal XC ski race course contained a lot of switchback climbing through the woods. John and the other Americans were in such a mood after the rat incident (and maybe suffering a bit of testosterone poisoning that is so common to 20 year olds), that they were howling like wolves at various parts of the climb, to encourage each other, and to see where they were on the course in relation to each other.

That was confirmation enough to the Canadians, After this race weekend, the Quebec racers began to call John Le Loup-Garou. That is french for “The werewolf”. The name stuck.

memories still to come…

To look backward for a while is to refresh the eye, to restore it, and to render it the more fit for its prime function of looking forward.
~Margaret Fairless Barber, The Roadmender

My father is a photographer, and as a kid, I always had a camera in my hands. Starting out with plasticy 110mm cheapos, evolving to a chunky East German made SLR, then finally now one of the highly evolved canon digital elphs, my father has given me every camera I own, and now, looking at a lifetime of photos. I feel completely wealthy with memory!! Thanks Dad!! On the right is my first time ever on a geared bike (look, I’m already reaching for a bigger gear!! I must be 8ish in that photo, hey dad, do you remember??)

Yet memory has a cost, fill your mind and soul with too much of it, and it can obscure or weigh down the future, balance is the key

Right now, to find balance, I need to edit down my lifetime of photos, currently about 8 boxes of them!!! I need to cut that down to 2 or 3 at max. So I am at present engaged in going though these boxes, photo by photo. Keeping a handful, 2-3 from each roll, and tossing out garbage bag fulls. So many pictures, people & places I had not thought about in forever (soundtack for this post: Paul Mcartney’s “in my life”)

What does this have to do with Zen and the Art of Speedskating? When I was first thinking of REALLY commiting to training, I wrote to the Connecticut speedskating coach Al Forsyth, who himself took this same path in the mid 80’s. I flatly asked him for his advice, here is what he wrote to me.

I threw it all away for two years and have absolutely no regrets. I
was lapping everyone in long track races here in the east and decided to take it to the next level. I STILL have great friendships from that period and have fantastic memories. I wouldn’t have know Eric Flaim and witnessed his rise to the top. When we were skating together he was doing a lot of the tagging along with us - although he may say otherwise…..

Andrew - if the desire is really burning and still is there - you have
to find a way or you may regret it. Worth it on a one year trial basis
but you would have to change locales - out to Salt Lake, Milwaukee, or Calgary.

Al, you are right, the desire is there, and I will have so many intense memories from this next year. So here’s to the memories!!! that are still to come!! What does one really have, upon reflection? a back account? what truly is wealth? but family, freinds, and memories…

1885 cycling quote

Bicyclian bards who sung
Wheely ideas below,
Which always find us young
Or Always make us so.

Verse, like a choir of poets in its sound,
All on his seat the rotal poemster sings
And while he turns the vivid wheel around,
Revolves no sad incertitude of things.

-J.G. Dalton 1885

I really like that quote, even in the late 1800’s, when bikes were high wheel monsters that had an unpredictable tendency to throw riders headfirst into the ground, they inspired people the same way they do now. “wheely ideas -which always find us young, or always make us so” nice…

The bike has been VERY good to me recently, I rode to the gym yesterday morning, and for workout #2 did a long ride in the evening, and just felt silly strong; I had one of those rides where there was nothing in my mind but the torque and power I was applying through the chain into the road, no sound but the hum of gears & windsong, the rhythms of extended climbing, the swoop of maximum lean on twisty, steep Ithaca descents. If I could bottle that feeling and sell it, I would be a wealthy man. Hmmmm, I am wealthy for just feeling it! (why are the people who have this life philosophy usually somewhat poor in the pure financial sense?)

Best Possible News!!!

The mystical MRI magnets swept across my knee on Monday, today the experienced eyes of Dr. Anderson made sense of the pictures, and gave me the best possible news. There is no visible damage at all to my ligaments, ACL, or my meniscus!!!! There is some inflammation in the kneecap, indicating overuse & that there is trauma, but nothing really abnormal in the essential structures.

YAY!!!

I want to take this moment to sincerely thank Dr. Eldridge Anderson, and the whole staff at the Ithaca Orthopedic Group! I first hurt myself late on a Thursday, called the doctor and was seen on a Monday, MRI’ed as soon as the insurance allowed (7 days) and then analyzed a few days later! That is simply fantastic! All you folks at the office, I am in your karmic debt!

So wait, what then, exactly did I do to my knee? Well, the plica does not show up well on an MRI, so that is what probably gave me that awful zing of pain I felt in the weight room. The plica is really something left over from when our knees were fetal knees and still forming. They are 3 internal folds of tissue in the center and on both sides of the knee (roughly where my hand is pointing, I liked this model of the knee so much I took a picture of it). It’s a physiologic afterthought; most anatomies of the knee leave the plica out.

To really look at a plica one needs to expand the joint with fluid and repeat the MRI. Ouch! Puncturing the knee capsule is never good, and not recommended on an injury that seems to be slowly improving on its own. If it refused to improve, another option would be a direct cortisone shot into the knee (would I test positive for steroids if they did that? Hmmm, probably, I would have to look for the appropriate WADA form.) But again, since this injury seems to be slowly getting better, cortisone is not called for. What I experienced in the gym was probably a very painful “warning shot” telling me to be careful! No more front squats this year!

So the prescription is to continue to rely on my intuition as to what I think my body can handle as this soft tissue (not ligament or meniscus) injury heals. The knee still hurts a little, it actually gave a “remember me” sting as I crossed my legs and rested the latest issue of “Mens Health” on my lap (how ironic). Dr. Anderson also advocated that I try a little “vitamin A” (advil) before my hard workouts, but he also told the cautionary story of NBA star Alonzo Mourning, who fried his kidneys with ibuprofin.

I can’t properly describe the feeling of relief I experienced, driving home down route 13. Suddenly that clawed & indistinct monster of fear in my heart, fear of not competing in Olympic trials after trying so hard for so long, fear of letting everyone down, fear that I am just “too old” to be doing this; that beast of fear quietly slinked back into the depths of my subconscious, where I usually keep it caged; it has retreated after the logical whipping it received at the hands of Dr. Andersen today!

MRI astronomy

A personal blog, when it functions at its best, is really an opportunity for readers to see the world through another set of eyes, to see “inside” someone for a moment through their words.

Well, here is an opportunity to take that metaphor one step further, as here is an image from my MRI this morning! The bones of my thigh and shin are clearly visible, as well as my ACL in the center. This is a cross section, somewhere behind the kneecap. The Doctor suspects an injury to either the Pleica or the Meniscus, both are soft tissues that cushion and guide the bones, and the Meniscus is clearly visible here as the separation between the bones.

Of course the natural thing to do is to look at this image and see if there is evidence of the injury in it. As laypeople, to do this is as fruitful as peering into the night sky trying to discover if a meteorite will someday destroy the earth. We don’t have the training or experience to really understand what we are seeing. All we can experience is the wonder of looking; and it’s pretty amazing; this is the inside of my knee a few hours ago!

I meet with the astronomer/doctor Wednesday.

My friend Carla described the sound of an MRI machine as like “giant ladybugs walking across the earth”. The MRI I spent the better part of an hour underneath sounded to me like the yammering of WWI era machine guns, firing at each other across an echoing valley (weird associations, as these are both things neither Carla or I have ever experienced). The very nice MRI tech said that one patient described an an MRI as sounding like “an antique John Deere tractor”. That works too.

A few days before I had my MRI, I had to answer a surprising questionnaire that included items like “do you experience claustrophobia” or “have you ever suffered shrapnel wounds” or if I work with metal a lot (mechanics & similar trades get metal slivers in their hands/eyes, very bad).

MRIs use extremely powerful magnets to work their visual magic, magnets that evidently can do things like pull pins out of repaired bones, metal slivers from skin, or destroy pacemakers. I had to remove all the metal from my body before I squiggled myself under this MRI (belts/zippers/keys). But I did forget to take off my titanium wedding ring, and although I did not feel it actually move, my ring finger tingled in the same way as the tissues of my knee. The kneecap looks so empty here, fragile like its filled with crepe paper, not like the meaty head of my calf muscle crawling upward from the right. Or the toughened X of my ACL linking the bones.

Thanks for reading, more on Wednesday (I did my hard jump program tonight, felt really good, but the knee is sore now, and I am icing it as I write this).

Thankfulness/Waiting for an MRI

The Orthopedist extended and turned my leg, flexing and prodding my knee joint slowly, deliberately, like a jeweler turning each fact of a diamond to the light. Of course, in my case, he was looking for pain. He went through a long series of movements, extending and contracting, gently and firmly, nothing, no discomfort.

Then with the tip of his index finger he put gentle pressure on the side of my kneecap, pushing it inward, and the diamond flashed with light, ooouucch! Ok! Yes that hurt!

I think this Doc has a pretty good idea (from the mechanical perspective) of what I did to my knee, or at least, he has it narrowed down to a couple of possibilities, mostly involving some soft tissues deep in the knee that skaters tend to hurt (this doctor actually skated short track some years ago, & used to work out regularly on a slideboard, so he knows athletes & skating, I’m lucky). I will have an MRI done later this week, and then we will have answers about severity/time till I can hammer again.

Thanks for all of my friends who, upon reading this blog, sent me emails & advice & encouragement. I really appreciate it. My brother did tell me strongly that I violated a blog rule of not updating more frequently when important things like knee injuries are happening!! so my apologies….

Till answers come, my coach wants me riding my bike to keep the fitness gains I have made (cycling is ok & does not hurt). Great! So I dug around my box of jerseys, and pulled out one of my father’s early 1980’s wool jerseys. It is very clearly “not of this decade” in a wonderful way. I wore it for a reason, because I want to dwell in the positive! I have to. This knee problem could be merely a delay, or it could be bad, so wearing this reminded me to be very thankful for what I can do. With almost 20,000 miles in his legs, My Dad has really not been able to ride since his heart attack in 1993, more than a decade of blood thinners & subsequent pacemaker instillation has gotten in the way since. My dad has “software” that controls his heartbeat, how’s that for a thought! Wearing one of his old jerseys reminded me to keep perspective.

It was 70 degrees today and with a blustering wind. In the spirit of thankfulness, I wanted some serious punishment to crumble my worries into dust, so I did a bunch of 5-minute intervals into the wind and big ringing it up the hills in my PowerCranks. I was pretty happy, I was able to sustain 190bpm for these intervals, and that nice big old flagon of lactic acid was mentally purifying to drink from. The bike is an old friend, and its nice when old friends beat the crap out of you on days when you simply need it.

Whizzing homeward, & down the Ithaca hills, sweaty and satisfied. I passed the spot where my friend Peter Ozolins had his almost life ending meeting with a car. Thankful, bum knee and all, I am so thankful to be who & where I am right now.

Sushi & Suppositions

It was a slow night for him, the restaurant was full, the waitresses were running around like crazy, but the catered party was not ordering from the sushi bar he stood behind. He had a very Japanese face, with a low, softly modulated voice that with his particular, hesitant English diction, made everything he said seem thoughtful. His eyes only enhanced the effect.

My wife and I were sitting at his sushi bar on the Ithaca commons, enjoying both his company and watching his sushi creative skills.

His hands worked with precision and speed, born from uncounted years/thousands of rolls. Blizzards of Rice, delicate slices of the freshest fish, crisp nori, a scattering of sesame seeds, mist of vinegar, swirls of decorative sauces, arranged wheatgrass shoots; his expertise made art disguised as food.

We were one of his only customers this evening and he spoiled us rotten. The sushi he made for us was too pretty to be subjected to destructive mastication and digestion, but to not eat it would be offensive.

As he topped our rolls with perfect tiny scoops of fish eggs, each scoop a different, vibrant color, for the first time in my life, I wanted a camera phone so that I could take a picture of it and send it to someone saying “ha! see what I get to eat tonight!” (or even post it here!).

I asked him “when you make sushi for yourself here, what do you make?” and his answer surprised me to the depths of my westernized romanticisms. He said “I don’t really like sushi at all, I love cheeseburgers. Yes, cheeseburgers and good beer. Have you ever been to In-n-Out burger? Mmmmmmmmm!!”

I thought at first he was joking, but the hungry glint in his eyes at the mention of this California based burger franchise, and his following detail of how he only likes the smell of sushi, not the taste, convinced me of his sincerity. He also went on at length about how he loves the iron chef, “Those chefs are really good, the best, but the show is all about entertainment, not about their skills.” He then proceeded to artfully slice up an Orange, and drizzle plum wine across the slices, as a freebee desert for us! Wow….. Jess and I were speechless, and quite full by the time we waddled out of there.

His new place in on the Ithaca commons, in the old Rosebud Diner location. I highly recommend it.

It was a good evening. It helped me take my mind off of the unease I feel under my still injured right kneecap. My knee works, but with a sensation, like an engine warning light in a car’s dashboard that pops on mysteriously when you press a little too hard on the gas pedal. But my warning light is a sharp pain, a warning light to the brain. I have been known to ignore “check engine” lights on my car dashboard, but I can’t ignore this warning light.

scary moment!

Feeling phenomenal in the gym today, like the plates & bar were made of Styrofoam, I was tossing around weight with ease and snap, my body has absorbed all my recent hard work, and then doing a front squat with 185lbs on the bar (and I do this all the time, this weight is not even close to my max) at rep 8 of a 10 rep set, I felt a bad twinge behind the right knee, I put the bar back immediately, walked around, stretched, shook the leg cautiously, it felt fine, no problem at all… I took the bar off the rack in back squat position (easier for me, I am far stronger in that range of motion) and the same bad twinge announced itself on the second rep, like an electric shock of pain right behind the right kneecap…

My “oh fuck” echoed loudly through the weight room, just to see if it was a range of motion thing, I tried the leg press, even with two plates on each side (for me a nothing weight) zing!!!!!! pain again, right behind the right kneecap.. I had warmed up properly, stretched well, nothing unusual in my routine…… I am 34, and very aware that I need to listen to my body, and it was sending me a very loud and clear message….

I ended the workout right there…. It does not hurt at all to walk or ride a bike or stand on one leg or even hop around on the one “hurt” leg… But that lifting stress was electric pain, very bad….. I hope it goes away!!! Looking back at my training journals from last year, on april 27th, a muscle in the top of the right thigh suddenly pulled in the gym. I also ended that workout immediately, and was fine in the following days..

I think I will be ok for my coming very demanding workouts…. As an athlete, its important to know yourself, know the line between and “owie” and a true chromic “injury” this is an owie at this point, since I stopped so early, not an injury…. but crap!! its scary to have this stuff happen… This could become an injury, I hope not…

Is there a lesson? Health is wealth maybe? Treasure what you have, it might be gone in 1 rep on the squat rack?

Its also scary cause my right ankle has been bothering me, it seems as if the right leg chain of joints & motion is somehow out of whack… I need my right leg…

Stay tuned….

Chris & Varya!!!

This blog shall return to its usual coverage of speedskating and the struggles entailed shortly, as recently my literary energies have been mostly absorbed by a wedding I was asked to write a toast for! Chris and Varya are dear friends, and they knew of my literary inclinations- So they asked me to write/recite a toast for their wedding ceremony! The wedding was beautiful, moving, emotional. And the toast I wrote seemed a hit, and since so many people asked me for a printed copy, I thought the best thing to do would simply be to post it here. (Speedskating returns tomorrow, I promise!)..

So here it is, Thanks Chris and Varya for being such true friends!!

April 16th, 2005

Its spring, and for each sunrise and sunset
Phalanxs of spring peepers chorus
their one note outward to the warmth saying:
“I’m here, I’m here..

Its spring, and birds in new plumage
Dart together across the blue sky–

Squirrels scamper across tree trunks
Weaving a spontaneous crosshatch of tails.

Flowers find the sun
Find the wind
and begin again.

Fish wend their way from Cayuga’s cold murk
To spawn in the sunlit riffles of Cascadilla Creek.

And if you look closely in the night sky
You can see the bats whirling through the dark
Loving each other upon a carpet of stars.

Yes its spring, and we are here today,
In the sun and air
In our best plumage
full of song and ritual….

Driven at first
By those same unnamed ions of union
driven by the clear sky and carpet of stars,

Yet

We alone of all species
need to understand why we do this.
To grasp our complex path
Of love that is more- because we have chosen it
Because it is our own path through
This often dark & difficult landscape.

And what of the Chris and Varya story?
What moments come to mind
On this spring day celebration?

It began in winter, during a long hike, lit by cold sun
In deep snow Ithaca woods
A hello, a conversation,

A conversation continued through emails, then dinner.
The path through the woods opens to clearings
Of honesty, light, possibility, courage.

Because love takes courage,
Courage you two have.
Love is looking the world in the eye, for better or worse
for the unexpected days when the ground can give way beneath your feet.

As it did on one of their first dates,
Varya falls through the ice of Cascadilla creek,
And Chris pulls her out,
And later they manage the
The perfect goodnight kiss
Even with mutual hypothermia involved.

There is no mathematical theorem of chance
No chaos theory algorithm to explain
Two flames of soul reaching higher because they stand together

Yet when Chris and his 2 dogs first visited Varya’s
Chris’s black lab Jazz can already tell
This home is good-
These two together make all well
So held aloft by love,
Jazz took a stroll out a window, onto the roof
And fell off the house
And was completely fine. He was right.

And then on a later hike,
Ringed by the rolling upstate New York Hills
Chris pulls a ring from his pocket
And asks Varya a question.

So now, on this later spring day
If you asked me for a mathematical proof of love
I would fail.

If you asked me to decode physicists triangulations
Explaining the oscillometry of love
I would fail.

If you asked me for the true weatherman’s forecast for our souls
For the high and lows, sunny days or hurricanes to come
I would fail.

But if you asked me,
On this sunny day
Can you point to what love is?

Chris and Varya, you are my undeniable proof…

And I don’t need a weatherman to see how all our hearts
Soar for you, and with you.

So I ,
And so we all
Raise our glasses of sunshine to you two
Chris and Varya.
To your love
and to your lives together.